Having surgery tomorrow and I’m sure it’s dumb to be scared but I am very scared… I don’t wanna be put to sleep… I don’t wanna feel out of it on pain meda…. I wanna wake up tomorrow and know the whole day ill be normal and in control of myself and conscious…. I don’t come home tomorrow and not be able to maybe clean or pick up something, or do any normal day to day task that involves moving a lot I’m afraid after my surgery I’m gunna be riddled of the ability to do anything I really wanna do because I’ll be in pain or out of it on pain pills.
I don’t want tht and I’m so scared . Mom said ill probably hav to sleep in the living room so I can keep my head elevated and they can keep an eye on me. I don’t want people keeping an eye on me I wanna be independent I wanna keep an eye on myself…. I’m so scared. I just wanna hav my surgery and come out of it still a completely normal person skip all the recovery bullshit.

Hey guys my parents are pot heads nbd they’re only the two biggest asshole hypocrites I’ve ever met…

jayarrarr:

There was a moment
I was yours, and you
were mine —
did we really feel
that way?

I don’t know, but I
miss thinking
that I did.

There’s nothing triumphant
in the rise of the sun —
if the earth didn’t rotate
we wouldn’t exist.

Funny how much
emotive power we give
to things
we…

klaxtinekatastrophe:

when you work in retail, you really start to lose hope in humanity..